change

Change is good.

I need to remind myself of this frequently but overall, yes, change is good.

People say I've mellowed out since getting married to a mellow man.

they call him mellow yellow, that's right slick! 

Anyone?

As I was saying, frequently I get the comment, "You've changed."

And to be honest, I don't like it.  Nope, not at first.

It makes me want to balk and fight the system.  It makes me want to eat fiery hot things, jump into freezing rivers, eat a whole package of oreos and do other ridiculous things that I used to do just because.

I never said no to a dare.

And so somehow when people say I've changed, I'm worried I'm losing myself.  Worried I'll lose my gumption and my courage and turn into the Cowardly Lion.

But you know what?

A little change is good.

For example, marrying my mellow man has me feeling more relaxed and at peace.  I don't feel like I have to do everything all at once.

A little change is good in narrowing down my interests.  When I was in high school I did everything and wanted to be good at everything and I wasn't because I was doing too much. I couldn't quite settle down on one thing.

Now I'm more interested in certain things and desiring to grow in only those certain things.

I'm okay saying, gulp, "no" and realize at this point that I can't do everything and be everywhere and have everything.

And you know what, I'm okay with that!

A little change is in the air and I think for growing in my desires, one of the places I'll start is with my blog.  Thanks to Katie over at Flibby Design Cultivating blog has received a new and very appropriate look to it.

I couldn't say "Happy Anniversary" without a present, could I?

Enjoy the new look, let me know what you think and here's to another five years of learning.