Wednesday, October 14, 2009

these little moments

Do you ever have those days where you know you missed out on doing something good for someone else?

I felt this way last night after some careful consideration.

I spent the morning at the DMV and the social security office yesterday trying to get my name changed (it is official people, I am a Wang!) and inside of me I has this impulse to be nice to people, talk to people and make the most of my situation.

But instead, I chose to be a complainer and a grumbly occupant of my seat.

It was actually really sad when I was thinking about my day and I felt God saying, "Why are you letting this affect you so negatively?"

And honestly?! I had no reason. I let myself spiral down into a bad attitude and then I let myself snap at my husband. I know sometimes we have those days where we don't mean to be rude to others but that was not my case. I was crabby because I felt like I had the right to be cranky.

Who wouldn't see my side to this? I thought sitting there. EVERYONE gets cranky in these situations.

But again I felt God nudge me and say, "What right do you have to be angry?" and I realized I had been a Jonah about the day (Jonah from the bible).

Instead of being cool about things and being a nice, smiley person, I chose CHOSE to follow the crowd of complainers and eye-rollers.

Dang! I missed the chance to be kind.

Do you ever have those moments?

1 comment:

Abbie Kampman said...

Umm, I feel this way pretty much constantly. Then I end up hating myself. It's a bad cycle! I'm working on it, though. YES I'd love to make the white chili for you anytime! That would be wonderful! When are you two coming back this way? Unfortunately I didn't make the bread--I bought a multigrain loaf from Panera. However I love baking homemade bread and learning to make multigrain loaves is one of my goals (it's more complicated and you have to use a bunch of different kinds of flours--but once I have it down I'll let you in on the tricks!)

I enjoy you, friend! Keep writing!